Nearly two weeks ago, I went in for a normal routine scheduled surgery that was supposed to be a one-night hospital stay for my convenience, which turned into a seven-day nightmare of pain and suffering—horrific suffering. This included internal bleeding, dangerously low blood pressure, two blood transfusions, and my body negatively responding to all pain medication, causing more intense pain instead of relieving it.
But this story started well before. Over the past several years, I have been on a health and healing journey, learning how to walk out wholeness in every area of my life so that I may experience a life healed, which is what Jesus paid for, and in turn help others do the same. I spent every effort rebuilding and strengthening my body and lost 120 pounds. For the first time in my life, I learned what a macro was and how to fuel my body using nutrition, and walked with a weighted vest. I renewed my mind and learned daily how to make the RED LETTERS from the Bible come to life in my own. It was not glamorous or fancy. There were no crowds or microphones. It took routine, strategy, and a lot of hard work. I learned that my first ministry is my family and how important healthy boundaries are for peace, how kind words truly soften hearts, and that standing for truth in righteousness always prevails. I also learned quite a bit about cognitive therapy, neuroplasticity of the brain, and how Biblical truths can be proven with science.
I felt like a warrior ready for battle, armored up and invincible. I was finally living a life that I had preached about. The enemy could never convince me that I was a fraud or a failure because the fruit spoke for itself.
However, in a matter of days, in a hospital bed, I was at my weakest, vulnerable, and asking Almighty God to rescue me. I was a warrior who could not war because I had no fight left in me. My blood pressure was 68/32 and I was out of my mind from the enormous amounts of medications and horrific pain. This went on for seven grueling, torturous days.
The spirit of death came for me, with all of its vile heaviness and torturous pain, but there was no energy left in me to rebuke him. Now, I have cast out evil and foul spirits more times than I can count and laid hands on the sick and watched them miraculously recover, but in this moment, all I could do was call on the name of Jesus. I was no mighty warrior or proven minister; I was simply a child of the Most High God, the King of Kings, to whom every knee bows, and HE RESCUED ME!
The Word of God promises that WHOSOEVER calls upon the name of the Lord shall be saved. You need not be a pastor, prophet, or scholar. You need not be a warrior in the spirit, just simply call upon the name of Jesus. It is He who saves. It is by His name and not by our works, but His finished work on the cross.
I continued to prophesy over my own life that I would live and not die, and declare the works of the Lord. So that is what I am here to do today, because I am an overcomer by the blood of the Lamb and the word of my testimony.
When death came for me, and I was too weak to war for myself, the Lord Himself warred for me. The word says in Exodus 15:3 that "The Lord is a warrior and Yahweh is His name!"
When I did not have strength, the Lord stood with me and gave me strength just as it says in 2 Timothy 4:17-18, so that I might preach the Good News in its entirety for all to hear. And He rescued me from certain death. Yes, and the Lord will deliver me from every evil attack and will bring me safely into His heavenly Kingdom. All glory to God forever and ever!
I have seen over the years how the Lord's grace is sufficient. He has given me wisdom and discernment to see beyond the veil and recognize those who were not for me, but in return has blessed me with a few incredible friends and family who have spent these past two weeks fasting and praying for my healing, and prophesying life over me.
When I was taken back for emergency surgery the second time, my great aunt and uncle were praying for me many miles away. They had no idea I would be receiving two blood transfusions from donated blood, but while praying, the Holy Spirit spoke and told them to tell me not to worry about the blood that I was receiving—that it was the blood of Jesus, and He was healing me.
Another friend who is deeply prophetic but had no idea that I was even in the hospital, texted yesterday to tell me she had been rebuking the spirit of death this past week, not knowing who it was for, and had wept repeatedly before the Lord for His mercies.
I am forever grateful to the Lord for the faithful Believers in my life and for my wonderful family who continue to care for me in such a selfless, loving way. My amazing husband has patiently comforted me and held my hand every step of the way. My sweet mother has taken such great care of me and cooked many meals, and my boys have been my joy. Their love for me has renewed a tenderness in my heart that I cannot put into words.
Jesus never said that we would not suffer this side of heaven. He promised that we would have many trials and sorrows, but encourages us to take heart because He overcame the world. John 16:33
As I sit here still recovering with drains protruding from my body and fighting each day to get stronger, I am reminded that Jesus was an alchemist—He turned water into wine. He did the impossible. And I know that not only is my testimony that God Himself saved me, but that He was my refuge as I walked through the valley of the shadow of death; He was with me. He comforted me. He did not leave me nor forsake me. He was my strong tower, and He covered me with His wings.
Nothing surprises God! He goes before us and is our rear guard. As a prophetic person, I am often overflowing with words for others and am always thankful to the Lord for anything He reveals, especially when it is one of encouragement or a beautiful word of knowledge that allows the person to feel loved and seen by the Almighty. Over time, I have learned that when the Holy Spirit reveals a word for others, there is usually something that can be applied to my own life as well.
Last month, I was asking Him which monthly anointing oil I should use for Grace Inspired Box, and I heard very clearly REFUGE. I did not quite understand His reasoning, but I obeyed. He even had me write out Psalms 91 as a personal declaration and prayers with scripture for refuge to put in each package to equip and train up the Saints. Little did I know at the time that it was also for me. He had gently and tenderly sat with me, encouraging me to write down how He was my refuge, well before I knew I would need these words to encourage myself.
You see, that is the kind of heavenly Father we have in Him. He prepares the way and knows the beginning from the end. All we have to do is trust Him and rest in the one who holds us in His hands. The maker of heaven and earth, the one who overcame death and holds the keys to the gates of hell. It is He who will use all of this for my good. Everything that was ever meant to destroy me, Jesus will use to strengthen me. He has a unique way of turning pain into purpose to strengthen my faith and equip me to help others. For that, I am grateful.
Although I am not yet able to explain why these things happen to God's children, I am certain of this: the Lord is faithful to keep His promises, and we never have to walk through anything alone. I know that our words have power, and I know that the Lord bends down to hear His children when they call upon His name. So, if you are walking through something painful that you do not understand, remember that the Lord himself is long-suffering. And I promise you, He will use this. It is not for nothing! I promise you that He will be your refuge and strength. He will uphold you with His righteous right hand, and He will comfort you.
All my love,
Kayla Osborn
November 9, 2025
I waited patiently for the Lord to help me, and he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the pit of despair, out of the mud and the mire. He set my feet on solid ground and steadied me as I walked along. He has given me a new song to sing, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see what he has done and be amazed. They will put their trust in the Lord.
Psalms 40:1-3
